Why Louna X?

I entered university excited to understand our societal systems and to gain skills for real transformation. I learned quickly that an institution can never replace community, no matter how much money or expertise we put into it. Social belonging is a nervous system process. Our bodies need safety, time, and presence from others more than any social service alone can provide.

 

Kids in group homes or addicts in rehab don’t need more interventions; they need safe places to rest. During my internship in child welfare, I spoke with institutionalized youth. One 16-year-old told me they wanted a gap year but couldn’t have one because there was nowhere safe to just be. They were deeply exhausted but forced to follow the system’s pace.

 

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When I discuss trauma, I’m also speaking from personal experience. I went through something traumatizing and have been recovering from PTSD for nine years. I’ve been that exhausted kid, too. The system failed me as well. I found healing in meditation, somatic therapies, EMDR, and deeply altering my life to fit my needs.

 

I also realized that if I truly wanted to put my education and lived experience to good use, I needed to step outside the system and build something new. But how could I dismantle patriarchy, capitalism, colonialism, and oppression with what I knew? How could I help build the metamodern society I saw emerging in academia?

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When I began exploring kink and BDSM five years ago, I found something unexpected: a practice that demanded presence, consent, communication, and radical honesty—the same things Buddhism teaches, the same things my nervous system needed in my recovery. Submission and dominance weren’t just about sex; they were about power, trust, vulnerability, and transformation.

 

I became a professional dominatrix not only because I loved the work, but because I saw how desperately men, in particular, needed this kind of container: a space to practice vulnerability, to let go of control, to be seen without performance. I realised femdom could be revolutionary, both personally and politically.

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My goal is to build a framework for creating and being in community. I want to give people tools to help themselves in these uncertain times. I want to learn what those tools are for myself—through academia, art, and human connection. Thank you for joining my journey, even for this small moment.